James-Jarrad Bruce Coleman

I got a new job today. I remembered talking to Dad about it. I moved out... I just had a hard time living with Mom. As much as I love her, she can be very frusterating sometimes.

 

While I was thinking about this new job, I realized that Friday is the last day of school. Summer starts on Saturday. How scary is that? It's so hard to believe that I'm about to go through with another summer. It seems like ages ago when you left me, and yet, it seems just like yesterday. Everytime I go to Zaxby's, I think about you. I can't work there anymore because of that fact. Without you, there is nothing about it that seems worthwhile. Although, I have found someone new. Someone I think you would really like. We argue a lot, but he treats me just like you did.

 

Anyhow, I just figured I would update you. I'm sorry I didn't go up to Gatlinburg and Pigeon Forge with Mom and Tim for our birthdays, but it's hard for me to go there now. As much as I ADORE your family, I cry everytime I go up there. I miss you and love you.

Jarrad has not gone to just "A" someplace. He has gone to a wonderous world that is more real , than the one he left behind. He lives in joy , pure happiness and Jarrad is experiencing  all the things that he desired to do here on earth but could not attain. Jarrad is living , working and serving in infinite love and peace. For you and all of the ones who murdered Jarrad that Saturday night on August 6 ,2006 , just know you took away a very beautiful and very special being from this earth, and from his family that LOVES HIM DEEPLY . Jarrad lives in a "Special Place" now and all of of you that killed Jarrad and those of you who covered up this evil crime , please know, it's not hidden from God, nor from Jarrad. So enjoy your ugly lives and know someday all of you will see Jarrad and face him again, but you won't be able to ever hurt him again and know this- All of you can't see Jarrad anymore, But Jarrad sees all of you, and all of you know that you all took the life of Jarrad , who was one of the best of young men living upon this earth. So, be proud of yourselves , all of you got away with murder-- until someday your deeds come home to you. Enjoy your collage days and your Marine Corp days and all of your lying ways and rotten lives. At least Jarrad is safe now from evil, which is what all of you people are. Jarrad is now a bright and shinning Spirit Being. We deeply miss him and will love him forever-as will his friends who also feel the same way.  Jarrad's Family and Friends

Jarrad:

 

We miss you so much.  Just the other day Bri and I were talking about each of us seeing a motorcycle like yours and thinking of you.  Even though 7 months has past, I still sometimes can't believe that you are no longer with us.  Sometimes I think that if we drove to Pigeon Forge that we would find you at Fast Tracks.

 

I know that you are happier now than you have ever been and I guess that makes losing you bearable.  Please forgive our selfishness of wishing that you were still here with us.

 

I just want you to know that you are in our hearts and in our thoughts.  Special people like you that make such a huge impact in other people's lives can never be forgotten.

 

I often think of how different our lives would be if you were still here with us.  I think of all the memories that we would have continued to make with you a part of our family.  There is no doubt, you had found the extended family that would have loved you and made you a part of our family for many years to come.  But, you already knew that didn't you?  That's why the precious time that we did spend together during your visits with us here in Georgia and our time with you while we were in the mountains were unforgettable.  I still remember that very first day that you and Brianna ever laid eyes on each other almost four years ago.  I remember the guys calling out your name over the loud speaker and how embarrassed you were.  Somehow I knew early on that you would make an imprint on our lives.  I am so sorry that shear jealousy took you from us.  I don't know why others couldn't just let you be happy and move on.  I have been told by your mom how excited you were planning to visit our home just before we lost you.  The pain was unbearable when I heard that Brianna's picture lay right next to you at the accident.  But, today I smile a little because I know just how happy your were and I can imagine that you were showing that picture off at Fast Tracks that Saturday night telling everyone that that was the girl that you were going to propose to the very next day! 

 

We are so connected to your family now.  I only wish we would have had a little time to experience getting to know your family while you were still there.  In time, I know that we will be ONE BIG FAMILY AGAIN!!!

 

You are loved, You are thought of, You are greatly missed!!!  I can't wait to see that big-dimpled smile again and hear you make fun of me calling out Tim's name!!

 

Until then......

THIS POEM IS FOR MY VERY HANSOME BROTHER WHO LOVED CHRISTMAS SO VERY MUCH!!!

        " CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN "

   JARRAD SEES THE COUNTLESS CHRISTMAS TREES

          AROUND THE WORLD BELOW

   WITH TINY LIGHTS LIKE HEAVEN'S STARS

           REFLECTING ON THE SNOW.

 

THE SIGHT IS SO SPECTACULAR,

     PLEASE WIPE AWAY THAT TEAR

FOR  JARRAD IS SPENDING CHRISTMAS

      WITH JESUS CHRIST THIS YEAR.

 

JARRAD CAN HEAR THE MANY CHRISTMAS SONGS

     THAT WE HOLD SO DEAR

BUT THE SOUNDS OF MUSIC CAN'T COMPARE

      WITH THE CHRISTMAS CHOIR UP THERE.

 

HE HAS NO WORDS TO TELL US

    OF THE JOY THEIR VOICES BRING

FOR IT IS BEYOND DESCRIPTION

     TO HEAR THE ANGELS SING.

 

JARRAD KNOWS HOW MUCH WE MISS HIM,

    HE SEES THE PAIN INSIDE OUR HEARTS

FOR HE IS SPENDING CHRISTMAS

     WITH JESUS CHRIST THIS YEAR...

 

HE CAN'T TELL US OF THE SPLENDOR

    OR THE PEACE THERE IN THAT PLACE

CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE CHRISTMAS

     WITH OUR SAVIOR FACE TO FACE ?

 

JARRAD WILL ASK HIM TO LIFT OUR SPIRIT

    AS HE TELLS HIM OF OUR LOVE

SO PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER

    AS YOU LIFT YOUR EYES ABOVE.

 

PLEASE LET YOUR HEARTS BE JOYFUL

   AND LET YOUR SPRIT SING

FOR JARRAD IS SPENDING CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN

    AND HE IS WALKING WITH  THE KING. 

Today I saw your family,

This was the time we talked about me meeting your family.

Do you remember?

 

We talked of families meeting,

on Christmas break, of course,

and that way trust could build,

and I could spend, with you, the spring.

 

They showed me pictures of last year's prom,

how quickly it sets in.

You'll never see my done-up hair,

high heels, or my grin.

 

We took pictures today,

your mother, Shannon, Melissa,

Mom, Chase, and I,

there, in your bedroom...

I thought I would die...

 

Remember Chattanooga?

We promised we'd live there soon,

You wanted a girl just like me,

and I wanted Jarrad Jr. for a son.

 

You told me once,

that you asked God daily,

to let us be together,

you feared the distance would be too much,

so instead,

you made yourself omnipresent!

 

No one could ever compare,

and no one will ever know,

the love that we did share,

is a kind you cannot show.

 

 

I love you, forever and always.

 

Your "wife",

Brianna

 

(p.s: Yes, the picture IS of Jarrad in my make-up. He told me he would let me put make-up on him, IF and only IF I would be his girlfriend. )