James-Jarrad Bruce Coleman

It's hard to believe that it's been four years since you left me. So much has changed. I think about you all the time, and I'm always wondering if you're looking down and thinking I make you proud. I really hope so. But mostly, I write today to thank you. On Sept. 4th, I got married. It's been almost two weeks as being Brianna Bartlett, and it's still a little strange. But the greatest thing about it is that I'm happy for the first time in a while. I feel like I have you to thank for that. In my heart, I feel like you walked up to God and told him I needed someone special, and you both chose Conrad for me. I feel the same kind of love from him that I did from you. Warm, tender, and always protective. I always knew I could look to you for shelter, and you sent me someone who could also shelter me. I look forward to the day when I see you in person and I can give my thanks. I still love you dearly, but I'm glad that you've helped me find happiness again. Also, please tell my child that I'm looking forward to meeting him or her. Tell them about the night with the candles, where we danced by the pool, and tell them about all the late nights that I didn't want to get off the phone with you even though we were both falling asleep. Tell him/her anything you want because we had no bad memories. I love you Jarrad, and please continue to watch over me and my baby as I continue living in this world.

Jarrad,it has now been four years today, since you were murdered ,but it feels like it has been only four days .All of those who killed you and those who covered it up have moved on and forgotten about you ,Jarrad but I never will,I think about you all the time.You were the best Son,any Mother could have had.Jarrad we feel  your light and your love ,from your far and distant home .Your life here was special.You left behind many good deeds and memories for friends and for us.Jarrad,I miss you so much.I love you!!!!Thank you for that wonderful hug and the beautiful words,it meant so very much to me,"that very special visit".I know I will see you again some day ,Thank you again Jarrad for being my Son.I Love You forever,MOM

Jarrad, today it's been four years since were murdered ,and the pain never goes away ,I miss you so much as being my brother.you will never be forgotten in my heart and Skyla's.I can't wait to see you again.I lov you so much !!!!!!Your sister.

Jarrad, your birthday has come again, I see you and I hear you everywhere. Sometimes at night, I still wait for you to come home. I know it's been over 3 yrs since they killed you ,but it feels like it just happened. I know Jarrad , you are in a beautiful and joyful place now , where evil does not exist, but I miss you so much!!  Jarrad you and your sister's, Melissa,Misty and Shannon always remind me, that there really are kind and special ones here on this earth still. Jarrad you had to leave this world but know this, you are much loved and missed and you will always be my Jarrad. I Love You, Jarrad - Mom

As if it's not like I still talk to you everyday, I felt like I needed to post to you on here. My life has been utterly insane lately. I feel like I can't trust anyone. Even my mom has done nothing but lie to me time after time. I've been feeling so weak lately. I'm trying to get myself back in school and trying to make a life for myself, but time and time again, I'm struck with the knowledge, the horrible reminder that you're not here to make a life with me. I compare everyone to you. Friends, boyfriends, even family members. No one adds up. Now, living with my dad, I feel more and more like a black sheep every day. Sure, it's a roof over my head food to eat, but I feel as though we almost have nothing in common. I'm trying so hard to see the brighter side of life, but I keep getting slapped in the face with everything evil. So, I hold out my hand now, with scraped knees, teary eyes, and a broken heart and pray that you will help pick me back up.

 

 

With a love that will never be forgotten,
Brianna